just follow the yellow brick road...

i've been feeling rather peculiar lately. as if my life needs to be reorganized and my goals reevaluated. no doubt, that is exactly what i should be doing. i find it surreal to think of the past year; who i was and where i was a year ago. there is no doubt that i was a different person living a different life a year ago. as hard as everything was, as difficult, it was also somewhat easier. a year ago, i had just finished my undergrad and had a clear trajectory of where my life was headed. i thought it was all layed out in front of me and all i had to do was follow the yellow-brick road to the wizard who would grant me my heart's desire. like dorothy, i found that it wasn't so simple as that. unlike dorothy, i couldn't click my heals three time and wish that there was "no place like home". admittedly, there is no place like home. and yet, i'm still adrift because i don't really know where home is.

as crazy and frustrating as it is right now, i'm finding it easier to breathe. i don't know what i'm going to do or where i'm going to go but for now, it's okay. i'm taking it one step at a time and finding that i don't mind the person i've become and where i am in my life. wishing is nice because it keeps hope alive. but having faith that everything will work itself out makes it easier to live one day at a time.