rollercoaster riding..

i feel like i've been up and down a rollercoaster since the first date. it sucks because i went from sort of interested to completely spellbound.

i'm in the process of trying to get over it all. this level of fascination over one person is not healthy. at least, i don't think it's healthy for me. i don't like it and i will get over it.

so i saw him yesterday, briefly. we didn't really talk. i guess my good intentions just flew out the window, much like my self-control. it happens, i suppose.

my heart hurts because she's in pain. i love my friends, i really do and when they're hurting it hurts me too. i wish there was some way to make it all better but short of commiting homocide, there's nothing i can do. i want her to be okay again.

i'm restless these days. trying to fill my time with amusement and distractions. it's a lovely time of year to pick up something new.