i'm gonna be a shining star

do you ever sometimes get the feeling that you're meant to do special, amazing things? i used to feel like that when i was younger. at some point in time, it feels like the spark faded and i'm left with graphite instead of diamonds. the world is my oyster and i forgot the sauce. i freak out at how old i'm getting and the lack of accomplishments in my life. when we're kids, we measure time by all the crazy, wonderful, scary things that we do; the moments in our lives. according to that measurement principle, i've certainly lacked progress. i'm bound for a great accomplishment soon, right? i feel like i'm pushing a boulder uphill and with each step, the rock doubles in size. so by now, i'm trying to push a mountain. it's so hard sometimes that all i want to do is rest in the shade and hope that when the sun rises, i can actually see beyond the clouds.